Thinking out loud wondering what life would be like if my angel Michael Dixon was still walking beside me right now what move would he make and will it be the wrong move. I think it is the best move well I'mm tell you he would say well are you still walking upright like a true woman of God and I would say not since the Good lord took you away Mister, and then he would answer back in a strong voice my child I know you didn't let what God has for you go and me in my soft voice yes my angel I did long time ago never looked back didn't know how to keep on serving him without having you to walk with me, and he's going to take a deep breath and say this is what we prepared half of your journey for Rene in his protected voice and at the end of our conversation he would ask me how I'm I going to tell the truth about whom I am and what marvelous things he showed me, and then I'm going to rub my head and say to the Good Lord above I will not be afraid of my gifts you blessed me with as a little child you walked with me and showed me my meaning here on Earth and God even though I had to endure pain, and you never let me have amount to myself it was always about you preparing me for me a testimony so with this said it was never meant for me to have an easy life from day one, and I knew that stones were going to be thrown at me for whom I really I'm and what I supposed to do on this Earth and almost everyone is going to be negative about my journey for the past 18 years of my life, and I am the one who dismissed everyone and never picked up a phone to call home I don't regret it at all but now since some of you think you know about what went on in my life or maybe heard something's that wasn't the hole truth or maybe someone just put a little spend on my life I don't know, but I can say this no one has ever been able to break me or speak my name negatively without a stone being cast back there way from my master my king the God Almighty himself. So family I think it's about time I shared something about me from my heart with yours, and then you will know the truth and some of the stuff I see and have seen will be the most important part of whom I am can't wait to share for it has been a long time coming, and I'm so ready for my testimony. Family and friends